you make me really nervous..

why can’t people just be straightforward. i’m not gonna assume that when you say it’s nothing, it actually means it’s something. i assume you’d just tell me how you feel. isn’t that our thing?

today i was offered a cigarette and i didnt take it. i’m proud of myself (: (: (:

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lml thanks for your input

i don’t see any point in telling you how i feel. i don’t even think i want you to know how i feel. and honestly i don’t see how it’ll make any difference. it isn’t gonna change everything that’s already happened. but like, the thing is.. idk if this is really how i feel or if i’m just in denial. sometimes i’m afraid i act too prideful.

ugh. sometimes i wish my mind just thought one way. i always look at things the two ways it can be looked at and i end up understanding both ways. that’s why it’s always fuckin difficult to make a decision. then i just get aggravated thinking about it and i end up pushing people away. idek where i’m goin with this anymore /)_-